Thursday, August 28, 2014


Money is tight and I needed interview clothes.  What to do, what to do?!?!

It's Goodwill time!

Does this look like the face of a woman who is unhappy?  Nope.  I have the day off, and I'm going thrifting!  You know what's funny?  The red shirt I'm wearing here was also purchased at Goodwill!

Look, if you have the patience, you can find some great items at Goodwill.  It's not like I had anything to do, anyway (although I still have not cleaned my desk.)  I dropped off some items to donate, and then I parked and went in.  Going during the week is so much better than weekends!  I practically had the place to myself and found some great items!  I was specifically looking for tops which didn't require a tank top to be worn underneath for modesty issues.  My husband said that while he appreciates my great rack, it doesn't need to be on display for an interview.  Why is it that most plus size clothes are so low cut? Sometimes, I just need to be Sarah, and not Sarah the Breasted One.  And I'm not even that large on top, I'm between a C and D cup, depending on the bra.

Purposefully wore pants today so I could see how these tops would look with pants.  What a cute top!  And it had a green tag which meant it was half price!  SCORE!!!!!!!!!!  Note to all:  after taking all of these photos, I threw this bra away.  It's doing me no favors.

I would have liked to have kept this top (red with navy blue stars!!!) but it had a stain on the back.  Darn it.  Do you like my Sheldon Cooper smile?  I was sending all these photos to my husband and trying to make him laugh.

This is a striped top from Avenue.  It's a size 18/20 so I thought it would be too big, but someone dried the heck out of this top so it was almost tight on me.  Really love the elbow length sleeves and the scoop neck, so I picked it up.

Not my favorite, but it's a good work staple.  The colors are hard to see, but it's turquoise, navy, lime and yellow stripes, on a white shirt with gold thread.  It's a Cato Woman shirt, in a size 18/20W.  Lots of good colors

This shirt had no size in it, but the label only says "Wrinkle Free" and gosh darn it, that's good enough for me.  The stripes are in black, navy, baby blue and gray on white.  Again, I chose it for the good colors to match a bottom to, not because I'm a fan of collared shirts.  Plus I hate ironing.  Plus I love a 3/4 sleeve.

Wanted to keep, but put back.  Great solid orange color, and autumn is so close!  But it was too wide in the shoulders for me, and you can see my tattoo.  So I put it back, but I wasn't happy about it.  No sir.

So here is the outfit I picked out for my interview tomorrow:

Gray heather dress trousers from Lane Bryant, bought this year and worn only once before.  $1.79 top from Goodwill, and Target green cardigan.  I haven't figured out which shoes to wear yet, and I'm going to wear my autism circle pendant and plain ol CZ studs in my ears.  Simple but put together.
Isn't the pattern lovely?

Well, that's my post for today.  I'd tell you what I did today, but you don't want to hear about dishes and laundry, do you?  I didn't think so.

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

Why I'm Still A Success

This seems like an odd post title after being fired from my job of 13 1/2 years this past week.  But let me tell you, I can see God's mighty and wondrous hand through everything that has happened since then.  I'm going to share with you now:

I was fired on Tuesday morning.  On Monday night, I emailed all my contacts from my work email, letting them know I was leaving.  After all, it's not their fault that I would no longer be able to assist them.  I gave them my cell phone number, my private email, and asked them to keep in touch on Facebook.  I also applied for four jobs online.

Over the past thirteen years, I have always tried to be pleasant, helpful, kind, and generous, even if I didn't really have to.  My question is, why wouldn't you want to?  It's so much easier than being mean, rude and nasty.  My doctors offices LOVED me.  Even though I wasn't their employee, they could count on me to help them, whether it was verifying patient demographics, insurance verification, coding, authorizations and benefits, or even personal issues.  They came to depend on me for my professionalism, warmth, and good attitude.

Today is Wednesday morning, and I was fired about 24 hours ago.  I have already received TWO job offers from my doctors offices, and have ONE job interview on Friday.  The two job offers are contingent upon my passing the CPC exam in September, but the job interview is at a rival hospital doing...get this...patient access, which is what I have been doing at my former job for thirteen years.  I applied on Monday night, and they called me Tuesday afternoon, which is just an astonishing turn around!

Thank the Lord above that my bff Ginger insisted that I buy a pair of work appropriate business trousers.  I insisted I would never need them, but she persuaded me to get them, and I'm glad I have them now, because that's what I'm wearing Friday.  My plan for today is to drop off some items at Goodwill, and then go shopping there to find a work appropriate business top and blazer.  If I can't find them there, I will probably head to Lane Bryant.  Most of the clothes I own are flowy hippie dresses, and I clearly can't wear that to a job interview.

So the lesson is this:  Be kinder than you have to be.  Be helpful, even if it's not in your job description.  Be polite, be gracious, and be the best you can be.  It will pay off in the long run for sure.  I am not ashamed to admit that I cried when I lost my job.  It was less about the money, and mostly because I am worried about not having health insurance, plus I felt rejected. I poured my heart and soul into being the best employee they could have, and I felt like I had been thrown away like a dirty diaper.  But those years of being kind and helpful have paid off!

I know in this terrible economy, it is terrifying to start over.  I'm not going to lie, it's STILL scary.  But I feel FREE, peeps.  Freer than I have felt in a long, long time.  And not just because I'm sitting in my pajamas at my dining room table drinking coffee and doing laundry.  I feel like opportunities are knocking all around me, and I get to pick!  Eeeeeee!!!!  How exciting is that?!!?

I have hope and a future!  Thank you, Lord!

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

Well, That Was Unexpected

No fluffy or frilly words.  I lost my job today.  I was told on Thursday afternoon that it was coming.  Then I was placed on administrative leave while HR reviewed my case, and I was fired this morning.  Stunned is a good word.  In 13 1/2 years, I didn't have a single write-up.  I've already returned my work computer, monitor, keyboard, and badge.  Then I walked out of the building before they called security to escort me out.  

It's only been one day, but being unemployed is weird.  I've never been unemployed before!  I did take time off when my children were born in the 90s, but I've worked steadily since 1998, when I was 23.  Before that, I did a lot of part time waitressing.  I applied for unemployment benefits today (which is now called reemployment benefits...nice try, State of Florida.)  I keep walking over to my empty desk to do stuff, and there's nothing to do (besides cleaning the filthy thing.)

I might go "Office Space" on my headset system.  It's broken anyway, so it's not like I can sell it for a few bucks.  But my phone still works fine.  I'm shutting off the phone line this week, too.  I had to maintain a separate line for the hospital.  No point in paying for it now.

Here I am, driving in so that they can fire me in person.

Leave it to me to have a really good hair day when I'm being fired.  Even the HR lady told me how nice I looked today.  What in the world do you say to that?  Gee, thanks.  I always try to look nice when I throw 13 years of service into the trash.

You know what one of the worst parts of this was?  HR interviewed my assistant manager and manager and both of them said I was one of the most valuable employees they had.  You'd think that would swing in my favor.  But no, they fired me, and then told me (I'm getting mad even typing this) that because I was such an "exemplary employee" that I was encouraged to reapply and be rehired in a year, as soon as I got more medical office experience.  WHAT?!!?! 

While I was there on the campus, I went to the credit union and cashed out my Christmas fund, which didn't have much in it, and used that money to pay for the coding exam.  I'm scheduled for September 27th, which gives me a month to study.  And I will.

My husband...oh my goodness,he has been THE BEST.  He has completely held it together.  He's going to stay on the road until late September to keep up on bills while my unemployment (errr, reemployment!) is being processed.  Praying that I pass this exam in September, find out in October, and working by November!

I also feel like I don't want to work from home anymore.  I feel like I'm ready to wear nice clothes, drive to work, talk to people.  It was wonderful while it lasted, and I will always be grateful that I was allowed to work from home when my children were small and needed me at home.  But they're not babies anymore, and it's ok to leave the house now!

What I wore to church on Sunday.  Target, under $15, a size XL in straight sizes.  Now that I see the picture, I feel like I need shapewear.  But how cute is it?  It's also the only pink item I own. Of course, I won't be buying new clothes any time soon, except maybe a suit for job interviews.

I also won't have the money to keep up this pixie.  So I guess I'm going back to long hair.  I just can't spend money on haircuts and stuff when I'm not working.  That's ridiculous.
So anyway, if you will please keep my family in your prayers as we work this whole situation out.  I'm not as concerned about cash flow as I am being without health insurance.  My son was supposed to have another surgery consult and clearly, we're not now.  I just don't want my kids to be hurting or in pain because I lost our health insurance over the dumbest issue ever.