Tuesday, December 2, 2014

I Quit

So my new job was supposed to start next Monday, 12/8.  I was getting more and more anxious about it.  I don't like pharmacy work.  I'm tired of authorizations.  The money wasn't great.  And it's a 90 minute commute, one way.  I've been having nightmares about the drive (I am seriously not great in a car for long distances) and just dreading it.

So, with my husband's blessing, I quit before I even started.  I emailed the temp agency recruiter, told her that due to everything I listed above, I just couldn't do the job.  I apologized profusely, and they were very nice about it.  I am shocked that my husband was so supportive.  I know it's a lot on his plate, supporting a family of five when you have a bad back and want to get out of that truck.  My job, until I find something good for me, is to be a good steward of his hard earned money and make sure all bills are paid, kids are fed, house is clean, and everyone healthy.  It's a big (unpaid) job, and I take it seriously.

Yesterday, I spent a day at the life insurance office, doing cold calling and just soaking in the atmosphere.  I am liking it more and more.  Since nothing else is coming my way except for lowly temp jobs and minimum wage offers, I have a feeling I'll be doing this.  I'm scared; it's a huge risk.  But because Mr. R is working hard, and his busy season is coming up (February through June is his busiest time of year) he agreed that I should give the life insurance a whirl.  Even if I suck and it's a bad choice, I'll be keeping my temp coding job and getting that experience too.  I think this is a great compromise.

For the past 13 years, I supported my husband as he built his business.  It was at job that I was good at, but bored and unfulfilled.  Now it's his turn to do the same for me.  I think that's what marriage is about; filling in where the other lacks, and vice versa.

Sunday, November 30, 2014

No Change In The Status Quo

Still unemployed, still (kind of) searching, still pondering if a regular job or the sales job would be best for me.  Of course, a regular job still hasn't come up for me, so right now, all I have is the sales job.
It's funny, I look as weary as I feel.

I couldn't get anyone to take my photo.  But I curled my hair, and did my make up, and went to church by myself.  And I have three Jamberry bingo parties tonight.  FUN!

Oh, we have a new member of the family, too.

This is Tequila (no, I did not name her) our 6 week chihuahua puppy.  My husband's mother found an abandoned Chihuahua tied up in a vacant yard, rescued it, and then discovered the dog was pregnant!  She had six puppies, so we got one of the females.  She belongs to my daughter, but she's at work today and my oldest son won't put her down.  She's so teeny tiny, he put her on a pillow and is carrying her everywhere.  Poe (our older dog) LOVES the puppy and wants to play, but Tequila is so little that Poe keeps stepping on her and making her cry.  So we have to keep them separate until Tequila gets a bit bigger.
"I want to play with the puppy!  Please!!!!!"

Tuesday, November 25, 2014

Trying To Be Thankful

I am blessed.  My husband is home for Thanksgiving.  We have enough money to pay our bills.  I have two job interviews today (one is a second interview with the life insurance place one gave an opinion in the comments?) and my children are healthy right now.

But yet, I am struggling with anger over being let go, even still.  I gave that place my all and was thrown out the door after a simple mistake which hurt no one (except me.)  The part time coding job at home is very slow.  I didn't even get any charts this morning, even though I got up early so I could work.  I am not one of those people who feel that a woman should bring in a taking care of a home and raising children, a woman does one of the most important jobs in the world!  I feel more guilty because my job loss means my husband has to work more, which is not good for his back.  If it wasn't for that, I don't know if I'd be looking this hard.

Here we are at worship together.  Our youngest son, Bucket, took this photo.

My temp job starts in less than two weeks.  So I know I will have money to get my kids a little something for Christmas.  I'm so glad they're older so I can explain to them that gifts will be little to nothing this year due to my job loss.  That part doesn't bother me too much.  I was hoping to decorate the house this year because I lost baby December during this Thanksgiving holiday weekend last year.  I never got into the spirit of Christmas last year, having no energy at all after my surgery.  Can you believe it's been a year already since I lost my little one?

I get emotional seeing this.  Thanks, Pinterest.
The second interview today is at a place which is local to me, doing insurance verification and authorizations, and giving tours of the facility (less than a 20 minute drive, in my own county!) and would be ideal, but I don't know about the pay.  I wish there was a law that if an employer advertises for a job, they have to give the starting salary in the description.  I find myself applying for jobs and when I get to the interview, they want tons of experience (which I have) and only want to start off at minimum wage or just a bit more.  I talked with a friend of mine who stated the same thing happened to her, and that's why she started her own business.  It's true that I have Jamberry (I'm not a millionaire off it, but I was able to pay my water bill with it this month!) but I wish I could find something with benefits.  If it wasn't for the health care law that passed, I'd just go without, but now you get penalized for not having medical insurance.  Smooth move, way to go government, hurting people who are already hurting.  I love my country, but I do not like my government.  Jerks.

I leave you Psalm 100, which is known as the Thanksgiving Psalm.  Have a wonderful, joyful Thanksgiving to my readers.

Psalm 100 King James Version (KJV)

100 Make a joyful noise unto the Lord, all ye lands.
Serve the Lord with gladness: come before his presence with singing.
Know ye that the Lord he is God: it is he that hath made us, and not we ourselves; we are his people, and the sheep of his pasture.
Enter into his gates with thanksgiving, and into his courts with praise: be thankful unto him, and bless his name.
For the Lord is good; his mercy is everlasting; and his truth endureth to all generations.